Saturday, May 13, 2006;
♥ 5/13/2006 07:01:00 AM
cos we lost it allnothing last foreveri'm sorryi cant be perfectnow its just too lateand we cant turn backi'm sorryi cant be perfect>>PEEK-A-BOO!
wells. WHAT?! i said i will be back din i? =p
hmms. im SO SO SO SO BORED i tell you, cos exams over and theres no more last-min-mugging for papers anymore? bleahh! hah. still remember everynight crammin all the darn info into my small teenyweeny brain the night before whatever paper. URKK! totally gross! but yeas. now? i can spend the whole day watching dvds. using the com. chatting on the phone. and SLEEPIN! hah! i slept for like, 12hours STRAIGHT on fri? like wth. hah! bahhh!
owells. im bloggin for a reason, like DUHH. hmms. dont bother asking. cos i doubt i will say anyways. but hah! im gonna blog! and blog daily i hope? hmms.
life hasnt exactly been a bed of roses, for me at least. so much troubles and problems for me to face alone. URKKK! and sometimes i really feel like ending EVERYTHING SINGLE SHYT IN THIS WORLD. but den of cos, theres so many things are are so dear to my heart tt i jus couldnt bring myself to forsake. and tt explain the fact tt im still standingsitting down here. typing this post away. hmms.
memories; strange isnt it? tt memories can bring you so much joy and smiles. yet it brings along the emptiness and tears. owells. hmms. AS I WAS SAYING, i have TONS of time for MYSELF after the exams. and i went back flipping thru my dairies and stuff. hahas. its really amusing. seeing how ive actually grown, mentally. i read the dairyi wrote in P6, hahas. HOW SILLY WFANG! and yeas, its really cool. now tt i can actually look back at MY PAST. hehes. and im sure glad tt I am the one readin the dairies, not other ppl! hahas. sayy, i really miss my old self. hmms, the self all the way back in year 2002? hah. when theres arent much troubles, and everything is just so blissful? owells, one thing for sure, back then. there just arent so much problems and tears and stress to handle ALONE. hmms, as i grow older. things just get so complicated. BAHH!
anyways. i made poems! hahas. not recently though. i made the poems back then, when tt AWFUL incident happen'd. hahas. and i wanna post one of them up here. (: and of cos it aint nice! mann! im call'd a student for a bloody good reason yeas? hmms. here it goes:
(to AHEM*)
youve gone and wont return
just like ive took a terribly wrong turn
i cant get out; im really lost
but i know, love cant be forced
perhapes we werent meant to be
or maybe the girl just wasnt me
time flew, love fade
like in water, away it wade
go on, walk out fo that door
turn around, i dont want you to see me fall
baby, you know
somtimes its really wrong
to turn and walk away so suddenly
though you think its over like finally
cos theres still so much i dont undersatnd
theres still things you must explain
nahh too late for me
youve already gone like the wind
the memories that stayed in my heart
i wanna forget, its just so hard
i used to be drown in your sweetness
in your warm embraces and kisses
all these time ive been under your wings
but now you left, like youre havin a fling
i gotta adapt on my own
gotta rely on my own
cos you, my baby, wont come home
i miss you i need you i want you
cos this love had label'd me; A FOOL
time spent together with you is luxury
your face and smile stay print'd in my galaxy
wat really hurts is the truth that is true
truth is: i lov'd you and i still do.
hmms. THERE! hahas. fine! it isnt nice, so what? at least the meanin of this poem is true. =\ BAHH!
oshucks! being online is so boring!!! wrahhh! w/o my GIRLFRIEND! and zx and hmms, this person whom i NEVER talk'd to. owells. BAHH!
to have it all and let it slip away
cant you see
though the moments gone
im still holdin on somehow
wishin i could change
the way the world goes round;
&maybe things will be fine after awhile.
